Sunday, January 10, 2010
Out in the sun.
Posted at 2:32 PM
Well, finally almost back on track, but you know how life is. Cant complain. After practising my green thumbs, I had a fetish ! Gahahaa, to swim ! This is of course after overcoming the trauma of being caught red handed. Again :(So jyeah, I didnt bathe. And splotted some sunscreen on myself, got my shades and my everything else and went down. A few minutes of walking to it, I realized. I forgot to shave. Honesty ;) So went back up anddddd, well, shaved. And went back down. Did my butterflies, and started to kill time by reading my tak habis habis book. Nazraj called me to complain about my absence. Im sorry, yeah, nazraj? I promise to make it up to you, someday.
I think throughout the first week of 2010, I started to realize who I was supposed to be again. Things between you got so good, that I forgot what I had to do. And Im sorry. I never thought I'd get to this point, and its hard, believe me it is. But I love you, baby. Dont let them kill us. Listen to your heart and be tough, as nails. We'll be alright.
Dont mind me if I like to look at the ground. Maybe, hmm, I find it fascinating? The sticks and stones the ants? Just saying. And I 'do' slouch. I got a long line of generations of people like my sisters and my friends, who slouch. Help us, dont mock us.
I understand that you might need to do a lil CSI on me, okayy then. And I respect your little activities. But seriously? Really? Whatever happened to loving freely -.-'
Dont get me wrong. I like you. And I might even love you, really. Everything about you is wonderful. Even my sister is hooked. But please, I am my own. I am who I am. Im still unblossomed. And I have tons of unbeatable flaws that sometimes might show out in a less attractive way. But Im trying..k? Im trying to be as flowery as possible. And I've got more shits going on than I need. Take it easy on me.
Im like an egg, dont break me. Im weak, I can shatter and my infamous tears can fall to the ground everytime it hurts. If you're trying to uhm..challenge me, in a way. Well okay, bring it on. But of course I might fail in your eyes. I might win your heart. I might I might I might. But my being speaks for itself. If you dont like me well.. thats life, I guess.
Picking back everything up after it fell. Im really trying. Dont give up.
You have me. No need to wonder why. Dont have to question. So clear your worry mind.
Kakak, come home, come home. I'll be waiting for you here, alright. Lets go shopping. :D
Mushir, be strong. I love you.
Marissa, take it easy on me. Im just a kid.
