Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Camping bliss.
Posted at 3:51 PM
Love is a temple, love is a higher law. My sisters. And my, brothers.
Hi. I just got back from camping, teehee. It was remarkable. Chekik! ;)
I just, probably met the next future president which was Luqman. Astonishing. Choked on my breath realizing how absolutely really far I am from being like him. Guide me.
The camp was great, I thank god for writing in my tiny book, fated to attend the camp. 35 bucks cold hard cash, none went to waste. Oh haha maybe just the food. Tak sodap! I had really bad diarrhea when I got home. Hah what a way to start the weekday. I learned gajillions stuff that I'll sure paste in my heart. I learn that we all are born leaders. We are fighters, fighting through the night. When I got back, I realized that we all struggle. I, struggled. Still am.
Are you still with her? Your heart? Tell me. I'd like to know. I adore you, somehow. I don't know why. She's ten million times better than me. In a way she's like an older me. More ambitious, absolutely amazing, fearless. What a kick to my ol' self-esteem heh. LOL I see you, I think about you. Totally irrelevant but still, the heart feels what it wants to feel.
Would you let someone pick up a call for you? Seriously. I would never. It's the way of life, really. I don't like the fishyness of the situation I'm in. I hate it. I don't want to be in it. Go. Go far away, please. Please. If it's true, I won't ever forgive you. I can't find my heart to. And this, I know my heart is huge. I can't. Please god, what do I have? When all I have is hurt.
I'll think this through and when I'm ready I'll blow the horn. I will. I promise. But it's too late, tonight. To drag the past out into the light. I'm living now. I'll be sure to keep living until I can't be holding on anymore. If it's only me alone, I will be.
To you, wait for me? I'd like to see where'd we go in this world. Wait.
