I'm looking for the house phone, I just can't.. I need to hear you. Do you need to hear me? Hello? I'm hurting.

Time gets really harder and harder everyday, and I'm immune to the fact that someday it will eat us all up. And we'd be vanished from the face of the earth. I know that. How do I fix this? This feeling of unstableness and the tendency to 'always' erupt like a volcano. You and me. We're volcanoes, baby. 

I never want to be like this. Anymore, ever. I never. It's eating every part of me, just like it did the last time. Please, Ya Allah. Never let me feel this way again. I'm so desperate to feel how we  used to feel on that Sunday night, with sparks in our eyes and light in our hearts. I'm so desperate to know that you are mine for life. I want to make things right, Ya Allah. I want to throw away all these negative shit, and just focus on what we truly believe and that's love. Our love. 

Dear sayang, I know these times are hard. Baby, I know. And I know we keep fighting about all the things that aren't important. We just keep fighting. Fighting. But please hug me forever and tell me you love me. Tell me you'll fight for us, and I will too. Then only then, we get take flight to wherever we wish to go, across all boundaries and mountains. We can make it. Please believe.